ACIM Mentor

“ How can I deal with deep feelings of sadness?…it happened when I started to go deep in meditation and spiritual path. It is as I have contacted a place of separation from God within me, which is almost impossible to ignore....I feel subtly very guilty of feeling sad. I also project a lot of people kind of trying to take me out of this dark place, and me feeling rejected for it… What I honestly get from the Course is that I have to go beyond it, to see what’s the truth beyond it, but in practical terms I feel confused on how this works. Should I give me permission to feel it? Should I also be soft with the part of me that wants to put some boundaries to don’t feel rejected?...I would like to learn how to deal with it with the Holy Spirit… – NA             First, yes, always let yourself feel whatever you honestly feel. Repressing your feelings is the way to hold onto them, not to release them. And there is no reason to feel guilty for any of your feelings. Feelings are not facts

I know as an ACIM student I’m not supposed to want to “fix the world” but I see so many problems and people in pain and I feel like I have to do something…             Statements like “supposed to” or “should” with or without a “not” indicate that you feel guilt and fear. This means that you are reading A Course in Miracles with the ego (personal thought system). When the Course seems to inspire guilt and fear in you, know that these come from your mind, not from the Course .  Ask the Holy Spirit (Teacher of Truth) in your mind for the loving way to read passages that scare you. The Course is a path to inner peace, not a path of righteous behavior to appease a punishing god.             It is true that you cannot want to fix something and let it go (forgive it) at the same time. If you want to fix something it is because you value it. And if you value it you must believe that it is real. So your feelings indicate that a guilty world in need of fixing is still very real to you

I don’t see how I've created my own life. Some terrible things have occurred and I didn’t want them…             (In A Course in Miracles “to create” means “to extend” or “to be one with”. ACIM uses the word “make” for what is meant by “create” in this question).   Your choice for the limited, imperfect, disordered experience of not-Truth (universe of form) was not made by you personally or individually. It was made by the split mind of which your mind is one projected version. On the individual level you become aware of yourself as a mind in a specific form among a multitude of diverse forms. But you are not without choice or power. Form has no power over you and cannot cause you either conflict or peace. That is a choice you make with the mind. If you want the personal experience to be your reality you will experience conflict. If you want to be aware of the Truth (God) because It is the Truth you will experience peace. The personal experience has no meaning in itself.

“ … I am 23 years old. Since I graduated from high school I haven’t joined any… form of education…What I feel in me is this… worldly desire for finding my goal/purpose in form. It feels like I cannot be fully happy while this remains unknown for me. Like just living ordinarily doing very little in form makes me unhappy…I noticed that the stories, articles about Finding Your Purpose make me sad in a way…But the truth is that the other part of me, the truer part, wants to let go of this so called Search for my Goal. I want to eventually come to the place within me where I can be happy with less or more activity, happy with not knowing clearly my worldly purpose, just being, living, as one beloved teacher said, Being happy with the void....nothing and eventually everything. I guess what I seek to know, How do I truly know if I am not denying this desire for activity in me, because of fear of some ego hidden stuff, by saying that I really want to let go while it may be the opposite? Wha