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  (In the article sent yesterday I mistakenly attributed to the experiencer what is correctly attributable to this mind, which is Spirit. This attests to the confusion that ensues after a shift, anyway! I regret any confusion this may have caused you . I made the same mistake in other recent articles, too, but more so here, so I send it revised…)   Where have I been? My recent discovery that I am not only not experiences but not the experiencer either is not new. As Spirit was emerging in the illusion but before I shifted to It, I practiced and taught, “Don’t squash the human! Let her thoughts and feelings be, without judging them.” This “I” had already shifted from the experiencer to Spirit. I knew the experiencer (person, human) was in my awareness but was not me. So, where did I go? Before the shift, I was 85% with Spirit but aware of a “black box” in the corner of this mind yet to be undone. I understood this to be what stood in the way of the realization of Spirit (me) in t

            Where have I been? My recent discovery that I am not only not experiences but not the experiencer either is not new. As I (Spirit) was emerging in the illusion but before the experiencer’s experience of existence shifted, I taught, and the experiencer practiced, “Don’t squash the human! Let her thoughts and feelings be, without judging them.” The “I” had already shifted from the experiencer to Spirit. I knew the experiencer (person, human) was in my awareness but was not me. So, where did I go? Before the shift, the experiencer was 85% at peace but felt there was a “black box” in the corner of her mind yet to be undone. She understood this to be what stood in the way of the realization of Spirit (me) in her experience. My emergence in the illusion set the experiencer on a trajectory into and through this remaining denial of God to reach realization. It has been as though she had to start at the beginning with this remainder, and so at times I have been blocked again and

            My recent articles have dealt with my realization that I am not only not experiences but I am not the experiencer, either. I was only caught up in her story. The hook for me was not her experiences but my awareness of her experiencing . When she was young and heard that in college philosophy classes students were asked to fill out "I ____ therefore I am” she thought she would have put “I experience , therefore I am.” What further proof did she—or I—need of her existence? Later, she believed in God because of her mystical experiences of God. It sure seemed to me she was real. What threw me, however, was the awareness that I never misidentified with the experiencer. But certainly, I had? Yet several experiences showed me this was not so. I had been absorbed in her story but I never “went there.” What is fascinating is this “I” (mind) has not moved. Instead, things have moved around me. Since Spirit broke through Liz’s (the experiencer’s) story and her experience of

           When I felt a few weeks ago that it was time to drop common concepts and just share experiences and occurrences in the most apt terms, I used only the word Spirit for the Idea of God in the illusion. I didn’t use Christ because I thought one word was simpler and Christ is loaded with more connotations than Spirit . But I do still feel there is a distinction. For me, Christ refers to the Idea of God in the illusion that is still , merely here with the illusion; and Spirit refers to the Idea of God in the illusion that is active , showing up as Answer, Teacher, Guide, etc. when the experiencer turns in the direction of Truth. However, the terms Christ and Spirit are in most cases interchangeable, and I stuck with Spirit for the reasons of simplicity stated. I vacillated on which term to use because of the occurrence a few years ago (see Liz's memoir ) in which I knew I was Christ, followed by the awareness that I was to teach, “I am Christ, as was Jesus, and so are

             Last week I wrote about occurrences that showed me I am neither experiences nor experiencer. A lot fell into place after that, and a lot is still being sorted out. After the moment over four years ago I call The Break (see the experiencer’s memoir ), when the experiencer’s experience of existence shifted, I knew I was in the golden world with my Self, yet something was still here freaking out about a kind of death it felt when Spirit emerged in the illusion and the thought system that opposed God (the opposer) fell away. I could not understand this and nothing I read of others’ experiences with this shift explained it because they still seemed to think they were the experiencer. I had always understood there were two parts to mind in the illusion, the ego (opposer) and Spirit. Ken Wapnick introduced the idea of a decision maker , which is not in A Course in Miracles , but was a useful concept. However, I never understood the decision maker to be a third part of the mi