Riding in My Slipstream
Some of you may be having a reaction to my last two articles
about the ego (personal thought system) falling away from this mind. Your
response may be like what happens after a higher miracle. What I call a higher
miracle is an experience where you either see that the Truth is true, that
illusion is illusion, or both. Whether or not you experience peace or joy with
this experience, it is followed by shock as you realize that what A Course in Miracles teaches is true.
It’s not just theory anymore! An ego backlash then follows on the heels of
this. The shock and backlash may pass in days or weeks, depending on how
advanced you are in your awareness of Truth. The more advanced, the less
intense the reaction.
Watching the ego fall and this mind rise in consciousness in
“real time”, as it were, seems to be having a similar effect on some of my
clients and readers. This is what I meant when I said some of you may “ride in
my slipstream” in the article about the ego falling away. In essence, you are
experiencing the realization “oh, my god, this is real!” in slow motion, rather
than with the immediacy of a higher miracle. I’m sorry for your discomfort, but
this is a good thing! Your reaction indicates that you are “getting it”. It is
not just theory for you anymore. These experiences of seeing that it is possible to drop the ego, that it is possible to rise in consciousness, are
necessary to shorten your path. They just really piss off the ego.
In shock, you may find it hard to think about what I wrote.
You may find you cannot even remember what I wrote. Or, you may find you cannot
understand it at all. The ego
backlash may take the form of it telling you to stop reading my stuff, to doubt
what I’ve shared, to think I’m just losing my mind, etc. Its resistance may
also take the form of envying me or seeing me as “special” in some way to keep at
a distance the possibility of you also dropping the ego. Of course there’s
nothing special about me. I was only willing and embarked on a long process.
The same process you are in now.
What can you do about this? Recognize it and
ride it out. And, if you want someone to talk to, sharing my experience is what I do. Hopefully, I can save you
some time in your process.
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Comments
We all get a Gold Star just because we are here reading the blog.
"This mind is split between Truth and not-Truth. Not-Truth was represented by an ego. What’s left in not-Truth is what I call the identifier/observer. It’s what I used to call the “decision maker”, but it’s more helpful now for me to split it into these two postures. The identifier is the part with the habits of thinking with an ego. The observer observes this and watches as the habits fall away. In fact, this whole experience of undoing self and ego identification only requires observing as it unfolds automatically. There is nothing to “do”.
Sometimes it comes in the form of a raging storm with all the special effects . . . torrential rains, pelting hail, thunderous roars, lightning strikes and the lights go out. Then as quickly as it seemed to come it shifts to quiet and an added bonus, in the dark you see clearer then before. Ah, yes and gentle laughter with a thought, oh the ice cream is going to melt and by candlelight you ride this storm too, spoonful after spoonful.
endless Love, n
Practicing the Holy Instant (T.15.IV) as described in the text can leave you as confused as you were before you read it. More so.
“The necessary condition for the holy instant does not require that you have no thoughts that are not pure. But it does require that you have none that you would keep (p.311)”.
‘The observer,’ that’s you, stands back and looks at the ego; that is everything that is going on in your head. You are now watching something independent of you. It is just a TV running on and on and you have stepped back and are looking at it. You thought the TV was you, but standing back it is just something running on and on regardless if you identify with it or not. This is the practice of ‘having no thoughts you would keep’. If the ego tells you there has to be more to it than that, just remember it is the Holy Spirit doing the work, you’re just doing your tiny part.
Be an Observer!
I'm not going to look for it now, it's late, but I did read while researching this that the practice can never really come close to the actual Holy Instant.