Higher Awareness and Emotions
The ego (personal thought system) comes up with a lot of
funny ideas about how the self one projects will show up when they realize Higher Awareness. It’s been
implied to me by more than one person that as I rise in consciousness I will
become an impersonal automaton. Ha, ha! No. It’s not like that.
First, let me explain what I mean by “Higher Awareness”. The
Awareness of Truth (Holy Spirit) is in every mind. Higher Awareness is an individual expression
of the Awareness of Truth. It is the awareness/consciousness/perception that
replaces the ego in relation to the self. When I am in the Awareness of Truth I
am looking inward at Love. When I am
in Higher Awareness, I am looking outward
from Love at the experience of the self.
The difference between the view from lower awareness (the
level of the self) and the view from Higher Awareness is stark. It is like the
difference between seeing the Himalayas from Nepal and seeing them from the
International Space Station. Higher Awareness is a much broader view. In It, I
sometimes see things outside the bounds of spacetime. I can see how some things
will unfold. I experience some things in the future as though they are
happening now. The Higher Awareness view is detached and holistic. It sees the
greater picture; the interconnectedness of people and events in the unfolding
story.
The view from Higher Awareness is not always so broad,
however. Mostly it is just the view from Love. It is Joyous and peaceful. But
the wider, higher view is always nearby.
I am still realizing Higher Awareness. But with regard to
emotions, I don’t expect it to be much different when I’ve come to full
realization. I do still feel emotions; I just don’t have any drama around them.
It’s as though I feel them as they really are, in their purest form. There’s no
ego to give them more meaning than they should have or to use them to punish or
distract me. Negative emotions happen, they just do not cut as deep or last as
long. It’s much like the emotions I feel watching a movie. They come and go in
the moment, and perhaps there’s a little processing afterward.
I go through the stages of grief, just much faster, because
I don’t have as many layers to process. I have flashes of anger or frustration,
but they go by quickly and are often laughed off.
Love, however, is
a different experience now. First, It’s not an emotion. It is What is. But It
is also experienced emotionally. And It is all one Love and I feel It
everywhere. I do not like to call It impersonal or unconditional, because those
words have negative prefixes, but those words are commonly used to express the
Love I feel. I do not feel Love for
everyone, I just feel Love, period. Sometimes I know I am It. It is my Being.
So It is me I extend.
I no longer feel special
love (thinking another is the source
of Love), but Love is expressed through the self as personal love. How else
would It be expressed? The self’s personality flavors the Love expressed and it is experienced as personal by the
recipient. For example, the self may adore or enjoy or be charmed by a nearby
loved one as usual, but the Love I feel extend through the self is the Love in personal form.
One lesson in this is that what I called love before was not
Love at all. It was different things in different circumstances. It was need or
attachment or simply fear of loss. It was so tiny a thing! A drop to a vast
ocean.
Another lesson is that you do not have to fear that as you
rise in awareness you will drop personal relationships. In fact, it is through
them that Love extends into the world.
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Comments
Also, I remember quotes from Mary Baker Eddy at times...I like the one where she said, "I love, and you are included in that Love". I love that one! Kind of flattens every thing with a Holy and impersonal meaningless sameness!
"The real dragon is in you, that's your ego holding you in. The most heroic of all acts is the courage to discover who you are and to slay the savage dragon of the ego."
liz, i always had an idea that as i rose in my awareness of truth, more negative emotions would fall away in time, ie frustration and anger. it sounds like youre saying that this is not what you are seeing now.. that what does fall away is simply guilt for the 'humanness', and with the dropping of guilt a lessening of the time spent with an emotion. is that right?