The Stranger Within
The first time I saw her was last August when the Golden
Light came into my mind and my first novel came through. There were only brief
flashes of her. She was a dynamic, confident, and lighthearted personality.
When she was around, the body stood straight and the muscles in its face relaxed.
On one occasion, one of her sisters looked curiously at her when she responded
to something with uncharacteristic lighthearted wit. “Oh, there she is,” I
thought. “Even her sister doesn’t recognize her.”
Suddenly, there was a Stranger within animating the self
this mind projects. Since the Holy relationship came in April and this mind
went through huge shifts in May and June, this new Animator emerges more and
more.
Over the years, when I was identified with the self, I experienced
disorienting changes through personal growth and shifts in self-concepts that
had me wondering briefly, “Who am I?” These were changes I felt were in me in
my self-identification. But this time, I did not recognize at all What was acting through the self. It wasn’t a different
version of me. I was a passive
observer; the consciousness between the self and the new Animator.
The former animator, the ego, which told this mind to
identify with the self, is gone. So this mind no longer has any sense of
“ownership” of the self. It observes the
self and lets its feelings come and go. And it observes the new Animator—Spirit—living
through the self.
Where ego lived through the self for fulfillment, Spirit mostly
lets the self flow in the unfolding story of the universe of form. As a
manifestation now of the Undoing, her part is a Love story all around.
Sometimes, like when she is teaching, formally or informally, Spirit is active in
her rather than passive.
This emerging Animator is fascinating to watch. Oh, it is
lovely to not have the burden of maintaining an identity, if a little
bewildering to a mind used to it. This mind is learning how to not identify with
the self. It is learning how to not-do as a Stranger directs the self’s doing.
My suspicion is this is a transitional experience for a mind used to separation
and parsing itself into parts. Just as my inner and outer life now have no
boundary, eventually the self, the consciousness now acting as observer, and
Spirit will become integrated into one thing.
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And, the last sentence hit me, too: "Just as my inner and outer life now have no boundary, eventually the self, the consciousness now acting as observer, and Spirit will become integrated into one thing."... who, or what, will be left to write this blog when this happens? Will there be enough "me" left to even care about such trivial things?
Do you have any feeling of personal control about when and where 'she' shows up to animate the body, or is it even a surprise to 'you' the Observer?
THE POWER OF NOW; A guide to spiritual enlightenment
Eckart Tolle; Namaste Publishing, copyright 1999
FREEING YOURSELF FROM YOUR MIND
What exactly do you mean by “watching the thinker”? (Observer)
Virtually everyone hears a voice, or several voices, in their head all the time: the involuntary thought processes that you don’t realize you have the power to stop.
The voice comments, speculates, judges, compares, complains, likes, dislikes, and so on. It may be imagining things going wrong and negative outcomes; this is called worry.
The good news is that you can free yourself from your mind. You can take the first step right now. Start listening to the voice in your head as often as you can. This is what I call watching the thinker.
Listen to it impartially. Do not judge or condemn what you hear. You will soon realize: there is the voice, and here I am listening to it, watching it. This “I am” realization, this sense of our own presence, is not a thought. It arises from beyond the mind. So when you listen to a thought you are aware not only of the thought but also of yourself as the witness of the thought (Observer).
It is 8:30pm and I'm hungry. I head out to get some chicken for dinner. The stereo is cranked up all the way with the pop symphony by the Walker Brothers, The Sun Ain't Gonna Shine Anymore. I step back and watch Will driving, the music, the mountains all around. I'm in the Present. I'm a happy learner!
Wow. I can have No Doubt. I'm living in the Slip Stream!
Chapter Six is a Real teaching chapter. A reframing chapter. It uses the crucifixion as a teaching tool. Intellectually I previously had a sense of what Jesus was saying about the crucifixion, but I could never internalize it. Jesus’s story in this chapter is part of his Slipstream and from the chapter we can feel his urgency that we understand and then become what he is teaching. Nonetheless it has always been only as I perceived it, which was with some doubt.
Enter our new slipstream. This one is so compelling because we know the person, the source of the slipstream. Inside this stream I found that there was change without my awareness. For instance. This week’s blog is part of a farewell to the body. The continued emergence of the Animator replacing the ego. Reading this, given (we) know the source of this slipstream, our understanding is transformed as we read with Jesus about the Crucifixion. We understand with a new clarity, with a new ability to internalize what he is saying. The chapter blooms and spreads out to cover our entire life here.
i wonder, liz'beth.. it was like one clear and very simple View in that second. like.. when i read 'one thing' what i saw was freedom from judgement. freedom from boundaries. or maybe.. it would be more accurate to say it was freedom in One judgement. blech, words! but thank you.. it was Golden!
I suspect that I'm at the beginning of that transformation. But, so far, it ain't been what I expected! Who knows what's down the road? Right now what's occurred is the correction of cause and effect. Further musings on this down the road. This week's article will address a reader's question. But next week I will be back on this topic.
In the fugue state they talk about the trauma of suddenly coming out of the fugue and finding yourself in a state of not recognizing yourself or your situation. There isn't a time line, you're just suddenly back in your original identity not knowing what is going on.