Bill Thetford's Individualized Curriculum
In the Manual for Teachers of A Course in Miracles where it discusses how one should approach the Course it says:
“The curriculum is highly
individualized, and all aspects are under the Holy Spirit's particular care and
guidance.”
(M-29.2)
How would you read A Course
in Miracles differently if you read it as the highly individualized
curriculum of, and description of what was to happen to, someone else?
A Course in Miracles lays out the path of its
first student, Bill Thetford, and describes what is to happen for him. He is led
to work on ego’s grievances as they block his awareness of God. He is told that
he will see the real world and soon after God will “take the last step” and he
will “put the body aside.” This is what occurred for Dr. Thetford. At
the end of his life, he said he had one remaining grievance. Then one day he
announced that it fell away, and he said in joy, “I am there.” A few
hours later he died.
Ego is the block to
Spirit in consciousness, but ego is much more than grievances. Grievances are
only one of its expressions. And ego is not removed from consciousness by
undoing its grievances. Ego does not fall away through any practice. It
falls away if Spirit takes the center of consciousness (enlightenment). Removing
grievances did not lead to Dr. Thetford seeing the real world. Spirit slowly rising
to conscious awareness led to a practice that forgave grievances and resulted
in a more peaceful life for Dr. Thetford. And at the end of his life, as
predicted, Dr. Thetford saw the real world and passed away. It is not the case
for everyone that they see the real world and put the body aside. Many see the
real world—as does this writer—and do not put the body aside.
In essence, Helen Schucman scribed
Bill Thetford’s individualized curriculum. The Course addresses both of
their minds, apart and together. This was their unique “holy relationship” and
“special function.” This does not mean that the Course is not for you,
but that it was specific to Drs. Schucman and Thetford and is not specific to
you. Apart from demonstrating how an individualized curriculum could appear, it
is full of important information, wisdom, advice, and suggested practice to
bring about a more harmonious life. Doing the lessons for one year is a good
start for “mind training.” But in the end, what you can take away from the Course
is that you, too, have an Inner Teacher in the Holy Spirit. And the Holy Spirit
has an individualized plan for you. The Course is obviously to play a
part in that, but what that is will not be what it was for Drs. Schucman and
Thetford—or anyone else.
A Course in Miracles does
not teach the Truth because the Truth cannot be taught. The Course does
not promise enlightenment because enlightenment cannot be taught. If it is to
happen it will happen, but you cannot bring it about through willingness or
practice or any other means. The Course
describes what enlightenment is like, but its practice is for mitigating the
pain of ego in ego-consciousness. This is done by learning to bring Spirit to
conscious awareness, which can lead to releasing grievances and other obstacles.
You may see the real world along the way or at the end or you may not at all. But
if you are drawn to the Course, it is for a reason. It will be at least
a part of your path, if not your whole path, in a way that is unique to you.
The Course’s Text ends on
“Choose Once Again” and its Workbook leaves you following the Holy Spirit for
your own individualized curriculum after the year of lessons. It trains up
“teachers of God” to live with the awareness of God to varying degrees in
ordinary lives. But, as with religions, it spiritualizes ego by implying ego is
a “lost” part of God that is returning to God. In this way, it reinforces ego.
And I think that may be deliberate, as a way to make ego less uncomfortable.
After all, Spirit is not going to take center in most individual
consciousnesses. The Course does not teach flawlessly, but helpfully for
those in pain—in ego. It answers, “there must be another way”—to live in ego.
Much that can be hard to understand in the Course may be cleared up if read in the context of the unique relationship of scribe and student between Helen and Bill, and in Helen’s reluctance and Bill’s willingness to practice it. It will be a gentler study and practice for you if you do not apply it all to yourself. Like any spiritual teaching, it should be read in the context in which it was written and with the Holy Spirit. And this takes time, and you will make mistakes, and it is not a quick fix, and it certainly does not lead to enlightenment. It is a long and gentle process for increasing, yet still imperfect, peace over a lifetime.
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Comments
It took about five years to read the text without having to read every sentence twice. I understood the sentences but not the meaning behind them. I did the lessons but had no idea of what I was reading. If you asked me that evening what I had read in the morning or the day before I couldn't tell you.
At around year fifteen I began A serious study only because I found it enjoyable. I went through the text three times, studied (not 'did') the lessons twice and went through the manual a number of times.
Every time I studied the text it has read differently than the time before. I have understood it at a much deeper level. A lot of it I had no memory of having read it before.
What my understanding is now, that the Holy Spirit needs us to help Him release the Sons of God. He needs to use our one mind to extend himsrlf.He needs us (not the ego) in the Holy Instant, the only place He is and can use our minds to extend to our brothers. This effort results in miracles within us.
I'm just working for/with the Holy Spirit to meet this goal. I'm not focused on myself and being the "holiest person I can be." I'm just a blue collar worker doing what needs to be done for everyone. Boy, what a difference that makes!
We want our soul or 'being' to join the Holy Spirit so he can extend all of it to the awareness of the Sons of God (our brothers). The Holy Spirit needs us in order to extend to our brothers.