To Be Of God
Watching your mind. Seeing through ego. Staying present. These are things that occur naturally in Spirit-consciousness. Until then, in ego-consciousness, you practice these things to mitigate the discomfort of ego.
When teachers have shifted
consciousness, they share these things, and it is almost as though they are
saying, “Here, practice this, and you will attain the consciousness I have.”
But Spirit-consciousness is not attained. It happens if it is going to
happen. No practice brings it about.
Last week, I wrote about
being of God. Some want to know how this awareness is practiced, but it
is not. This is the realization of Spirit-consciousness.
What I have discovered is
that ego-consciousness, or identification with the person/ego, was the
manifestation of opposition to God. I could not do anything about that
opposition in ego-consciousness but experience it and eventually recognize it.
For a long time, I felt it as the 15%, or black box in the corner of my mind,
left to be undone. I lived very well with Spirit, rather than as
Spirit, with this 15%. I lived with the idea that I was of God rather
than manifested the realization.
When I shifted consciousness,
I switched positions. Now, opposition to God is the idea and the awareness I am
Spirit—I am of God—manifests in my experience. I do not feel I am of or in the
world anymore, but rather that it is merely here with me. I simply exist, in
the ether, as it were. As this has emerged more and more in my experience, ego
has continued to wind down in my mind.
I did not become Spirit. I
always was Spirit. Ego was simply an idea I was otherwise. So, I have always
been of God, no matter I identified with and manifested opposition to God. And
I did nothing to undo this identification. It just fell away in the moment I
call The Break. (See A Memoir of Christ: A Student of A Course in
Miracles Awakens here).
In many ways, I do not feel
any different. Yet, in other ways, I feel in a new dimension. I feel my mind
changed, yes, and with it my world, dramatically. Because my world now is no
longer the material world. It is not a world visible to the eyes. The material
world is simply coinciding with my new world. A new perception and experience
of it is still developing.
Guilt, fear, lack, loss—these
ideas are still here, too, but diminishing in size and potency.
So, you see, the Spirit you call on for comfort, guidance, and insight in ego-consciousness really is you, whether you shift to It or not. I led a good life with Spirit before I shifted. I cannot recommend living with Spirit enough to those still in ego-consciousness. It seems the only way to any measure of true peace while manifesting a false thought system is to develop trust in What you are in Truth, just as A Course in Miracles teaches.
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Comments
The egos bargain with the Holy Spirit is I will study hard and be a good student and you will give me what I want (enlightenment).
If you have been doing the Course for years and are feeling stuck, Do the Lessons. They will speak to you where ever you are in the Course. They have great depth at 15 years. So much more than when you did them starting out.