Wondering if you could just take us through a day in the life for you in regards to "forgiving". And maybe how you first started "forgiving" versus how you do it now.
From forgiving the whole world to forgiving a hang nail. Sometimes it seems when I read about child abuse for example, and I say "it's not real" it kind of feels like I'm discounting the horrible pain the child has gone thru…it's just my projection seems kind of like a cop out or something.....I really do understand it's all a dream, but still. I've been doing my forgiveness work for almost 3 years now and I really don't feel any happier or peaceful and it's starting to zap my motivation.....
I do what the Course says:
1. Notice it - acknowledge it's you/your projections
2. Realize it isn't real/truth
3. Release it to the Holy Spirit
Am I doing something wrong ? – DC
The reason you cannot forgive is that the world and your projections onto it are still very real to you. You are trying to forgive from the ego.
In the beginning it was the same for me. I finally gave up trying to forgive or to do anything that I thought I read in A Course in Miracles. I decided one day that I would focus on what I knew already worked for me: Communing with God (True Being) daily and maintaining my relationship with the Holy Spirit. I did this for a while, and nothing else, and lo and behold forgiveness happened of itself! This is why I emphasize growing your awareness of Truth rather than trying to forgive. Growing your awareness of Truth is the way to forgive. You do not forgive the world by looking at it and trying to convince yourself that it isn’t real. You forgive the world by looking away from it and toward Truth instead. To let go of the world you must become aware that the Truth is Reality. Otherwise all you’ve got is the ego and its projections.
So when something comes up that disturbs your peace use it as a reminder to turn your mind to Truth. Don’t try to forgive it; just use it to remember Truth. As the Truth becomes true for you the world will become less true for you. Then you will not feel that you are copping out when you say it isn’t real. You will truly know that it isn’t real.
Now I spend my day maintaining my awareness of Truth and forgiveness happens of itself. In fact, I don’t even think in terms of “forgiveness” anymore because there’s nothing there to forgive.
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