Ask: Can you shed some light on ego making choices?
“Can you shed some light on the magic trick of the ego that feels/thinks that IT is doing everything and anything…surrendering, taking its will back, praying the Course’s prayers, doing the lessons and so on. Is it not the case that “I” am literally doing nothing? That God is simply God being and this little side trip into consciousness is merely unfolding…no agency whatsoever? That the belief in the reality of this dream, by definition, contains this ever present belief that we are making choices?” –MG
So, here’s what my experience since The
Break has shown me, contrary to what I expected as a student of A Course in
Miracles: No part of truth, whatever you want to call it, God or pure
consciousness (my preference now), entered a “dream” or “side trip”. Ego, it
turns out, was an idea playing itself out. The idea is a false reality where an
“I” lives as a person in a body in a world. Some see this “I” as also having a
soul, or a disembodied version of itself, that lives many lives. These are all
just ideas and none of them are from or touch truth, reality. It’s not so much
like a play being put on, where an actor takes on the role of a character. More
like animation, where everything, scene, props, characters, are contrived.
There is no real “I” that enters it and then realizes it was having a false
experience.
This…depiction…plays out in the “space”
of truth, or pure consciousness. Pure consciousness is just being, completely
apart from this idea playing itself out. Is it watching? Mmmm…not deliberately.
More like passive observing because this thing is here. Pure consciousness
understands it is a total mirage. Nothing real is occurring. It has no thoughts
about it, anymore than you give thought to heat shimmering off the highway on a
hot day once you learn it is only a mirage and not really water up ahead.
So, within the mirage, the depiction,
the mere idea, there is an “I” that is doing—a lot. It’s a big-time doer,
that’s its seeming existence. Ultimately, what it is doing is nothing, as you
said, because none of it is real at all. And some of its doing is seeming to
make decisions. The depiction is predetermined, like an animation it is
following a script, so there are really no decisions being made on the spot, it
just seems—and feels—like it. That’s actually just part of the play, what it
is, this whole idea of a reality where real things are occurring.
For some of the characters, truth comes
to conscious awareness. They become aware of something greater than just this
little ego experience. But ego cannot acknowledge it is not real, so it weaves
this awareness into its story and suddenly the character is on a religious or
spiritual path, making different choices. Now, ego, the “I”, thinks it is going
somewhere. Some characters feel they must attain something. Others feel they
are “returning home”. The truth that is sensed is real. The journey is not. Ego
is not and never will be part of truth. However, the religious or spiritual practice
an ego feels moved to make expresses the awareness of truth. In other
words, cause and effect are the opposite of how ego sees them.
So, let ego and the person go to do as they
are moved to do, without judgment. They are not foolish for learning to let go
or for praying, meditating, practicing, etc. When those things are sincere,
they are expressions of truth rising to conscious awareness.
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