Ask: Why is it so much work to awaken even when you want to?
"Why is it so easy to identify with the ego and it takes so much work to "awaken" even when you want to?" – T
You are born into a consciousness (ego) that is the opposite of Truth (God) in every way. It is real to you and you do not question it until one day maybe you do. Perhaps you question it because on some level you were open to Truth and had an experience that is not of this world. Maybe you question it because it never seemed to you to be all that could be. Or you may question it because you hit a bottom so low that you opened to Truth in desperation. In any case, it’s easy to identify with the ego because the ego is what you think is real and true! It’s all that you thought you knew.
It seems to take work to awaken (to be aware of Truth) because you have to undo your belief in a thought system (ego) as your reality that is wholly the opposite of Truth. And you do this in the midst of a world that reinforces this opposite-of-Truth thought system rather than Truth. Even if you have directly experienced Truth you do not wholly trust It right away because It is unlike the experience of ego that you have thought was real. In your identification with the ego, lack seems like reality. So Truth, Which is an experience of wholeness like nothing that the world offers, seems too good to be true. And part of your experience of the opposite-of-Truth is a deep-seated, mostly unconscious belief that you are guilty for defying a power over and outside of you. So you don’t feel worthy of an experience of boundless love, peace, and joy.
So do you really want to awaken? Yes, you do, because you let Truth into your awareness. And once you did that, your journey to being aware of Truth was set. Now the story for the self in the world with which you have identified will be one of growing your awareness of Truth. But within this process of becoming wholly aware of Truth, sometimes, no, you won’t want Truth. It frightens you. It will take a long time to work out your deep-seated belief that the ego, lack, and guilt are reality. It will take experiences of Truth to Which you will open only very slowly because Truth is unlike your experience of the ego and because in your belief in guilt you think that Truth is really out to get you.
The contrast between the opposite-of-Truth and Truth is so stark that your mind could not go from ego right to Truth without going into shock. So the Course offers you a gentle process of awakening. Over time you have experiences (miracles) of Truth that first make you aware of It and then develop your trust in It. You have as many of these experiences as you are willing to accept. And as the Truth becomes true for you, you will find the willingness to question the guilt that blocks you from keeping Truth in your awareness.
It is a process. At any given moment you experience as much awareness of Truth as you are willing to experience. Your willingness, and nothing else, determines how aware you are of Truth. And when you want only Truth you will experience only Truth.
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