Your Itch to Share is Your Own Desire to Learn
When I began as a student of A Course in Miracles over 3 decades ago I was itching to share what I learned with everyone. I didn’t, though, because I knew how much I hated it when others proselytized. Even if I didn’t mean to convert anyone I knew that’s how my sharing would be perceived. I also knew that if I shared what ACIM really teaches others would think I was nuts. I knew how radical it was and I only trusted it myself because I’d experienced Revelation and miracles early on. In fact once in my excitement I took a chance and shared with some acquaintances something I heard from the Holy Spirit and one of them, a nurse, asked, “Was this Voice inside your mind or outside of you?” I reassured her that I was not psychotic; the Voice was in my mind. The experienced reinforced for me how it was best to keep my new experiences private. I only discussed some of them with other ACIM students.
I also suspected, correctly, that my itch to share was not from the Holy Spirit. The feeling was too strong. The Holy Spirit is a quiet knowing, not a strong or passionate feeling. So I didn’t trust the itch and I didn’t want to be led by it. I wrote in my journal when there was no one with whom to share a lesson. If I was ever going to teach ACIM, and I didn’t know that I was, I wanted to be led into it by the Holy Spirit. And when it came time to teach, that is how it happened. It wasn’t an itch that moved me, but a quiet knowing that this was what I was to do next. And ever since then, when I do share in my writing what I am learning or what I have learned, I am not led by an itch. Instead it just flows out of me.
So what was this itch if it wasn’t the Holy Spirit? In time I realized that my own itch to share with others was my own itch to deepen or clarify the particular lesson I wanted to share. The itch still came at times, but the lesson never flowed out of me then. I wasn’t ready to share it because the lesson wasn’t solid in me yet. I needed to deepen and clarify the lesson in myself before I could share it with others. I’ve come to see that my writing occurs when I am consolidating a lesson, not when it is new to me. In fact, my writing about something means I’m ready to move past it, on to a deeper level with the same lesson, or on to other lessons.
The vast majority of students of ACIM do not eventually teach others. But of course the itch to share is not limited to those who do end up teaching. The itch is just a sign that you want a lesson to go deeper in yourself. If the itch won’t pass it can help to write about it in a journal. And if you journalize with the Holy Spirit it can be a practice that helps the lesson deepen in you.
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