Ask: Is there anything this separate sense of self is responsible for?
“Liz, thank you for your recent post on what if I run out of time. It’s helped me to stop struggling and let things play out. My question is: Is there anything this separate sense of self is responsible for?...” – AS
“The sole responsibility of God's teacher is to accept the Atonement for himself. Atonement means correction, or the undoing of errors.” (M-18.4)
Now that you are aware of the Undoing of the idea-of-not-Truth (the “Atonement” in A Course in Miracles) you are responsible for accepting the Undoing for yourself. This may seem to contradict what I wrote last week about the Undoing’s unfolding being inevitable. But “down here on the ground”, as it were, the Undoing unfolds through your taking responsibility for correcting in your own mind the error of believing in not-Truth. This shows up in your day to day life as whatever study and practice you feel moved to do. And also what you feel not moved to do, as well. From now on, however you feel moved, it is the manifest expression of the Undoing.
I realize that this is something that you probably cannot see. I can only see it for myself in hindsight. Once I had an experience of Truth my path was set. Often I felt I’d wandered off or that I was failing. But all of that was really a part of the path. My part with regard to making a choice was really over. I accepted Truth into my awareness and I was taken along from there. All of my efforts to force it to happen were not necessary. I just needed to check in everyday with the Awareness of Truth (Holy Spirit) in my mind and trust that what efforts were needed by me would arise organically.
I wish I could’ve trusted this. It would have made it a lot easier. But the path is called the “Development of Trust” (Manual for Teachers) for a reason. If I had trusted I would’ve been much further along than I was! And it is the lack of trust that makes it so very uncomfortable for so long. But just know this: Once you’ve invited Truth into your awareness your path is set. The Undoing will now unfold through you whether or not you are consciously aware of it. It may mitigate any discomfort to step back and remind yourself of this whenever you feel that you are lost or failing.
ACIM teaches that forgiveness is your part to play in the Undoing? But how does that show up for you? This is something that I discuss with my clients. If you’d like to discuss this or anything else you can email me at Liz@acimmentor.com to set up an appointment. Learn more about what I offer at www.acimmentor.com.