Beyond Managing Mere Moods
This mind is grateful that its current stage of awareness of
Truth coincided with this body’s peaking in peri-menopause because otherwise it
would be a neurotic mess. If peri-menopause had happened earlier in this mind’s
developing awareness of Truth this mind would be totally distracted by the physical,
psychological, and emotional effects of the wild and unpredictable surges in
hormones that are the natural process of this stage of the body’s life. The body would require hormone replacement
therapy at minimum and perhaps anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medicines.
This time of life for the body coinciding with this stage of growing awareness
of the mind has in fact helped this mind to hone its detachment from the body,
the self, and its story. It has helped it to see that there is no real
difference between a “good” mood and a “bad” one in that they occur in the same
self-identified part of mind. It has helped this mind to see all moods as one
single experience – the human experience – so it can let go of them all as one.
And it has helped this mind to see how much time it spent before managing mere
moods and mistaking that for “spiritual” work.
Not all of the body’s moods when it was younger were caused
by hormones. Many moods were the result of this mind’s conscious and
unconscious belief in guilt and were only sometimes exaggerated by hormones. But this mind does now see that it was not
always aware when hormones were in play. In any case, being self-identified, this
mind believed the body’s feelings and the thoughts that they induced were its
reality. Its efforts were all toward managing these moods. It used spirituality
to feel better or to feel good. In fact, it thought that was the point of the
spiritual process. It was endlessly trying to find the right thought, the nicer
thought, the good thought, the loving thought, etc. that would fix or change
the body’s mood. It wasn’t until peace came to stay in its awareness and the
body and the ego (personal thought system) didn’t change that this mind
realized that it had been using the wrong gauge for measuring its awareness of
Truth. The moods of the self are irrelevant. Managing the self’s moods is a
distraction from true Peace because nothing about the self has anything to do
with Peace. A “good” mood is not inner peace and a “bad” mood is not inner
conflict. The mind can be at peace and observe that the self is in a “bad”
mood. The shift this mind needed was not in mood but in where it rested within
itself: in Truth rather than in the body.
This mind has come to accept that this self will never be
lastingly happy. This mind has a deep, abiding contentment despite this so this
fact is nothing. True Peace comes from the awareness that Truth is and It is completely untouched by
anything in the universe of form. Of course what motivated this mind to pursue
an awareness of Truth was the desire for personal happiness and peace. How
could it be otherwise when the self was all it thought it knew? It had to learn
that there was more to mind than ego. It had to undo its belief in guilt, which
is what made the ego real to it. And then it found detachment from the ego and
the self. This mind can manage the self’s moods or it can rest in Peace and just
watch the self’s moods. But it can’t do both.
[Let me head off some emails by saying that in the first
paragraph I am not saying it is “wrong” for women to use HRT, anti-depressants,
and anti-anxiety medicines in peri-menopause. I advocate for the judicious use
of medication that will make anyone physically or psychically less distracted
by the body and its processes and disorders. I have been able to (narrowly) avoid
them only because of the detachment I have attained after more than 30 years in
this process. You cannot pretend a detachment that you do not have. You cannot
pretend an awareness that you have not attained. There is no value in being in
pain or so uncomfortable that you do not have any quality of life].
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Comments
im curious though.. the feeling of detachment youve spoken of in regard to the happenings in the world.. is that like a lessening of the intensity of mood? or is the intensity of moods experienced in the same way as before you came to lasting peace, but you just dont mind anymore due to your knowledge of truth?
"In any case, being self-identified, this mind believed the body’s feelings and the thoughts that they induced were its reality. Its efforts were all toward managing these moods. It used spirituality to feel better or to feel good. In fact, it thought that was the point of the spiritual process. It was endlessly trying to find the right thought, the nicer thought, the good thought, the loving thought, etc. that would fix or change the body’s mood. It wasn’t until peace came to stay in its awareness and the body and the ego (personal thought system) didn’t change that this mind realized that it had been using the wrong gauge for measuring its awareness of Truth. The moods of the self are irrelevant. Managing the self’s moods is a distraction from true Peace because nothing about the self has anything to do with Peace. A “good” mood is not inner peace and a “bad” mood is not inner conflict. The mind can be at peace and observe that the self is in a “bad” mood. The shift this mind needed was not in mood but in where it rested within itself: in Truth rather than in the body. "
...i can see i was still trying to spiritualise the individual self, to bring peace to myself. and i think ive been mistaking detachment for calm, not concerned moods rather than for letting go of self identity and being aware of true being. i think so anyway. thank you.
endless Love, n
And so this mind's efforts are to: detach from ego thoughts, catch 'this mind' from identification with ego thoughts and to thwart any action that is ego based (judgment, attack, perceived attack). In other words, to make different choices moment to moment.
Along the path, and you know what's coming... this mind gets down on itself for screwing-up! Only, I forget and then believe that it is my True Self that has failed and not my mind.
When I perceive my mind to be in a weird mood that is less than peaceful, I assume I have unforgiven guilt on a subconscious level. That produces more guilt!
So is it possible to imagine how incredibly clarifying this article is to 'this mind'?
I recently asked the HS to be with me 24/7 and that I was 'willing' to let go of what I thought I should do, be, think, say, feel... and know deep in the True Loving Awareness that I AM... that I would be gently guided to each lesson toward 'knowing'.
Lately, I get up in the morning and say to myself.... 'Well, what kind of gifts will your dream produce today? What miracles will you 'dream-up?'
It's obvious that your message of mood and Truth was a magnificent gift, to you and to us all!!
The clarity which Liz writes here in her blog pays tribute to her 30 years as a student and teacher of ACIM. The added value to her followers is that she is able to teach from experience that we all identify with. What she has gone through we all go through eventually and reading of her learning experiences here validates our learning and subsequent efforts. This is why I no longer worry about awakening right now as I too, along with all of you, can guide other students along the path as we go before them.
Thank you Liz for your guidance.
if how we are feeling is not the gauge to measure our awareness of truth.. what is the gauge we can use when still identified with this self? it sounds to me like youve undergone a shift in identity that showed you, by HAVING the experience, where you had been mistaken in your gauging.. but do you think you had to go by that mistaken gauge in that earlier part of the process?? im a bit afraid of the thought of not managing my moods, afraid of the intensity of feelings. oh, hang on.. does your answer to marissa's question contain the answer to this question? dont manage the feelings.. have the courage to allow them and then question the beliefs underlying them? so the gauge would be, maybe, how soon i turn to the questioning of beliefs?
youre welcome nicci :) much love to you too xx
I had to go through that mistaken gauge because I did not know any better. If I knew better I would not have made that mistake. Also, I never said you have to remain in a bad mood.That will happen naturally. It is an effect of being aware of Truth. It's about focus. If you are managing your moods because you think the mood reflects your awareness of Truth you are mistaken. But if you are aware of Truth you will shift out of the part of the mind in the mood (the personal). And then, as an effect of this, you will be able to look at what caused the mood.