Beyond Managing Mere Moods
This mind is grateful that its current stage of awareness of Truth coincided with this body’s peaking in peri-menopause because otherwise it would be a neurotic mess. If peri-menopause had happened earlier in this mind’s developing awareness of Truth this mind would be totally distracted by the physical, psychological, and emotional effects of the wild and unpredictable surges in hormones that are the natural process of this stage of the body’s life. The body would require hormone replacement therapy at minimum and perhaps anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medicines. This time of life for the body coinciding with this stage of growing awareness of the mind has in fact helped this mind to hone its detachment from the body, the self, and its story. It has helped it to see that there is no real difference between a “good” mood and a “bad” one in that they occur in the same self-identified part of mind. It has helped this mind to see all moods as one single experience – the human experience – so it can let go of them all as one. And it has helped this mind to see how much time it spent before managing mere moods and mistaking that for “spiritual” work.
Not all of the body’s moods when it was younger were caused by hormones. Many moods were the result of this mind’s conscious and unconscious belief in guilt and were only sometimes exaggerated by hormones. But this mind does now see that it was not always aware when hormones were in play. In any case, being self-identified, this mind believed the body’s feelings and the thoughts that they induced were its reality. Its efforts were all toward managing these moods. It used spirituality to feel better or to feel good. In fact, it thought that was the point of the spiritual process. It was endlessly trying to find the right thought, the nicer thought, the good thought, the loving thought, etc. that would fix or change the body’s mood. It wasn’t until peace came to stay in its awareness and the body and the ego (personal thought system) didn’t change that this mind realized that it had been using the wrong gauge for measuring its awareness of Truth. The moods of the self are irrelevant. Managing the self’s moods is a distraction from true Peace because nothing about the self has anything to do with Peace. A “good” mood is not inner peace and a “bad” mood is not inner conflict. The mind can be at peace and observe that the self is in a “bad” mood. The shift this mind needed was not in mood but in where it rested within itself: in Truth rather than in the body.
This mind has come to accept that this self will never be lastingly happy. This mind has a deep, abiding contentment despite this so this fact is nothing. True Peace comes from the awareness that Truth is and It is completely untouched by anything in the universe of form. Of course what motivated this mind to pursue an awareness of Truth was the desire for personal happiness and peace. How could it be otherwise when the self was all it thought it knew? It had to learn that there was more to mind than ego. It had to undo its belief in guilt, which is what made the ego real to it. And then it found detachment from the ego and the self. This mind can manage the self’s moods or it can rest in Peace and just watch the self’s moods. But it can’t do both.
[Let me head off some emails by saying that in the first paragraph I am not saying it is “wrong” for women to use HRT, anti-depressants, and anti-anxiety medicines in peri-menopause. I advocate for the judicious use of medication that will make anyone physically or psychically less distracted by the body and its processes and disorders. I have been able to (narrowly) avoid them only because of the detachment I have attained after more than 30 years in this process. You cannot pretend a detachment that you do not have. You cannot pretend an awareness that you have not attained. There is no value in being in pain or so uncomfortable that you do not have any quality of life].
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