Ask: More on It Is All Unfolding Perfectly
Last week I
wrote about how this mind has come to an awareness of the self’s life in the
world as an effect and not a cause. It is an effect whose cause passed the
instant it was caused, so therefore it is over. This means, in essence, that
what you see unfolding in the universe of form has really passed. This does not
mean, strictly speaking, that what you see passing in time is predestined. What
you see is done, therefore, it is not to be done. You are really looking back
at an idea that is over (and therefore cannot be changed), not living in a
predetermined idea unfolding. However, since you think that you are in time,
and that the idea began long ago and will be undone in some indefinite future, you
experience it as though it is unfolding now.
The reason
this mind used to get stuck on this idea that time is over and what it is
seeing is past was that, as a self-starter, it felt so self-directed. The piece
that this mind was missing (other than the fact that it is a mind and not a
self) was that its personal desires and motivations were part of this
unfolding. Its personal desires and motivations were the universe living through
the self. So this mind experienced it as though the self was autonomous even
though it was not. The self is part of a greater story played out through the
self’s story and the stories of every other self.
One of the
ways that the personal thought system (ego) twists this awareness that what is
unfolding is done is to de-motivate you. If everything is going to unfold as it
will unfold and you cannot affect it why do anything? But that is really an
upside-down way to look at it. Whatever
you end up doing (or not doing) is part of the unfolding. You only have to
live naturally, as you have been living. You have all along been a part of the
unfolding. The only difference now is that you know it. In the personal thought
system you ask, “What do I want? And how do I make it happen?” Instead, you can
say, “I want _____ for the self. Is this desire the unfolding universe living
through the self or is it just how I’m trying to fill a sense of lack? I will
let it unfold naturally. If there is any action to take I will know what to
do.” You can sit back and let your intuition guide you. To live in the flow of
the unfolding universe is a much more harmonious way to live.
If you still need
a sense of purpose for the self, here it is: The self’s life is part of a
greater whole. What is its part? A clue is in what is authentic to the self.
What has it always wanted? How and where does it feel it is most itself?
Perhaps it has always known its part. In any case, however its life unfolds is
the self’s purpose. Until you are aware of and living in the flow you will continue
to feel self-directed. And that, too, is a part of the unfolding. You do not
have to live in a worry that you can do something wrong. You cannot be out of
the flow of the universe. You can only be unaware of the flow. Anything that
happens is what happened.
So where does
free will come into this? The self does not have free will. The self is an expression of a will that is
free. That will is the will of what I call the “split-mind” and what A Course in Miracles calls the “Son of
God”. In the introduction to ACIM about free will it says, “Free will does not
mean that you can establish the curriculum.” This means that you do not get to
choose that, in your sense that you are not your true Being (“separated from
God”), you need to relearn What is your true Being. It goes on to say, “It
(free will) means only that you can elect what you want to take at a given
time.” This means that each individual self will play out the correction to the
extent that they can. This is experienced
as free will, but is in fact not self-determined.
It is determined by the whole unfolding story of the undoing of the idea of
not-Truth. The will that is free is the Son of God’s will, which, in an instant
thought of the opposite-of-God and in that same instant undid the idea of the
opposite-of-God by seeing its impossibility. It was free to do both and that is
what is played out in the story of time.
But where
does personal responsibility come into this? If you feel moved to take
responsibility or to not take responsibility all of that is part of the unfolding. If you kill someone and that
was meant to be, doesn’t it mean that you are not guilty for that murder? Well,
yes, but not because it was “meant to be” but because none of this affects
Truth in any way and therefore absolute morality is not real. But social
morality is part of the human culture at the level of form. In form there are
always consequences (for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction).
If you kill someone in a way that is not sanctioned by the world (as in war),
then there will be consequences. Even if you “get away with it” and are never
found to have commit the murder or are never convicted of the murder you will
spend your life running and hiding in some way. All of that is part of the unfolding. If you are moved to take
responsibility and learn and grow, that is your part in the unfolding. If you
are not moved to take responsibility and learn and grow, that is your part in
the unfolding.
You can see
how this sets you free to not judge other selves. Whatever they are doing or
not doing is their part in the unfolding story of the undoing of the idea of
not-Truth. Your part is to attend to your mind, not to the lives of others. Since
you are reading this, your part is an overt expression of the undoing.
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From The Song of Prayer,
“There are decisions to make here and they must be made whether they be illusions or not. You cannot be asked to accept answers which are beyond the level of need that you can recognize. The form of the answer, if given by God will suit your need as you see it. This is merely an ECHO of the reply of His Voice.”
“You cannot then ask for the echo. It is the song that is the gift. Along with it come the overtones, the harmonics, the echos but these are secondary. In true prayer you hear only the song. All the rest is merely added. You have sought first the Kingdom of Heaven and all else has indeed been given you. In prayer you overlook your specific needs as you see them and let them go into God’s Hands. There they become your gifts to Him for they tell Him that you would have no gods before Him.”
I am have been abusing drugs (painkillers for the last 20 years) and alcohol for the better part of the last 40 years. Although I believe that I would be happier sober, I seem unable to stick to a decision to stop. It is heartening to hear that this is simply the unfolding of one life, but on the other hand it is incredibly painful to live through. I have recently started therapy and we are looking at my very poor perception of myself, and although my therapist is introducing a new way of perceiving myself, no sooner does she bolster me up, I seem to find myself running back to self-medication. It seems I am either high and motivated to do things normal people do , or recovering from being high and lying around berating myself for my inability to change. I sometimes feel that this drug use has something to do with my keeping the Holy Spirit away, unworthiness and other such debilitating beliefs and all, and I really would like to value myself enough to change, yet seem unable to.
Given your last blog, how should one in this type of situation go about perceiving themselves do you think? To imagine the remainder of my life living in such conflict seems unbearable and the Course (after 25 years of study/influence) hasn't seemed to help me much with this problem, although it has made me a gentler and kinder person to everyone (but myself). I recognize fear is at the bottom of this issue because although I have read the text many, many times, I have always stalled out with the workbook at part 2, just when Jesus is trying to make us understand how loved and lovable we are in Truth. Learning about the machinations of the ego I've had no problem with, but seeing myself as an expression of love, created by love and manifesting that belief just seems to high a leap to make.
It just feels so frustrating to realize that while I am asking for help to change, I am also refusing it. And then to read of all the people who have had miraculous transformations after calling out for help, it just makes me more demoralized and quite frankly, a little pissed off.
I can't hear his voice and so I am hoping you can......
TY, for being a teacher of truth and not being what I call fluffy. You get to the point.
Lots of love
Nan
Nanette Victoria (NJ)