Ask: Why do I need to make things "right" in the world?
“Last night I
watched a riveting documentary on the life and crimes of the notorious
millionaire psychopath, Robert Durst. I vaguely remembered hearing about him
but actually knew very little. As his Texas murder trial played out in the
film, it became clear that he was going to be acquitted. Watching his slick,
venal, lawyers manipulate the unsophisticated jury - and then calmly talk about
their unscrupulous tactics in later interviews - I felt my stomach tighten with
fear and my temples throb with rage. The duplicity of Durst's wealthy family in
the cover-up, the unresolved grief of the families of his victims, and of
course listening to the vile Durst himself trying to play the world for fools,
added to my upset. I tried to detach from the story and contemplate why I felt
so threatened for one thing, and how to return to peace (my ultimate goal in
all upsets.) The only thing I could come
up with is that this case so rocked my sense of how things SHOULD have played
out, I felt like I was standing on my head and needed desperately to get
"my feet back on the ground". This is a pervasive theme in my life,
ie. the need to "SET THE RECORD STRAIGHT" - with the right words, the
right truths; How does so and so get away with that? etc. I slept badly and woke
up exhausted. What do you think the lesson is here?” – ES
You
believe that guilt is real. This is another way of saying that you believe that
the world is real. If the world is real then guilt is real. Guilt is the
“proof” that the world is real.
The
world is the opposite of Truth (God) in every way. It is imperfect,
dysfunctional, unfair, unjust, etc. When guilt is real to you, you see this as
“wrong” or “sinful” rather than as impossible. You feel an urge to fix it
according to what you feel is “right”. The world’s sin reflects to you the sin
that you feel is in you. When you realize that you cannot fix the world you
feel powerless and afraid. Really what you are feeling is powerless to do
anything about the guilt in you. You are doomed, and this is terrifying.
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Comments
“Think of them as running parallel in your mind. You can experience both but they never intersect. They never blend. One never enters into or becomes the other.” I picture them in my mind as train rails going off into the distance.
ES is referring to the not-Truth experience. The ego. As I understand it you can’t fix the ego. Giving it undo attention only makes it more real in the mind. It has no value in terms of ACIM. You can describe how it works but in doing so “It is another way of saying the world is real.” As we step back and see that our personal mind (identity, Will or ES) is 'not-Truth' we are confronted with the conundrum of the next step in ACIM. If I can’t use me (Will or ES) what am I supposed to do?
But it's hard to stop because I feel that my tendency to judge situations is "useful" especially in the political realm.
For example, I feel that one official in my town is really working on behalf of developers. I feel that I am being "helpful" by criticizing her decisions. I try to do it in an intelligent way, i.e. I don't call her any names, etc, but in the end, I guess it's still a judgement.
It's difficult to stand back when you think your town is being hurt. But perhaps this is an admission that I still believe in pain?
Any thoughts on this, Liz? I guess I wonder if I should get involved or not. I feel that if I don't get involved, I'm letting my town down so I'm feel like I'm caught between a rock and a hard place.
Thank you.