Back to "God"
I have gone back to “God”.
I am writing a memoir about my path up through, well, when I finish it! The title—as of now—is A Memoir of Christ: A Student of A Course in Miracles Awakens.
I was not planning this. One day the prologue for the book came to me, I wrote it, and suddenly there was a preface, and I’ve gone from there. You can see the thread of it in the title. It was a surprise to me. Suddenly the whole of my former life was re-framed as Christ’s journey. And my new experience of existence is given new context.
A year ago I had an experience on a walk where I was my Self, the one we all share. Jesus was there and I knew I was experiencing me as I am, Christ. If you know my story, you know I point to the start of my spiritual path as a moment when I was a teenager and suddenly knew that what Jesus was everyone was. In that moment a year ago I realized this in my experience.
A few days later I knew I was going to go forward in my teaching using the term Christ. Well…ew. I really didn’t like that idea. Moreover, I knew my message was to be, “I am what Jesus was and so are you.” I was not comfortable. But for the next year, while I kept with me the moment of my Self on the walk, and had more such experiences, I pretty much forgot about the teaching stuff until the prologue and angle of the memoir came to me. And now I am perfectly comfortable with all of it. It is the truth, after all.
If you’ve read my articles and books for any length of time you know I moved away from the language of A Course in Miracles quite a long while ago. I’ve used “Truth” instead of “God”, because God can be such a loaded word. For myself, I could not get away from the connotation of God as a judgmental supreme being. I dropped Christ as well. I kept Holy Spirit for a while longer, but then switched to Awareness of Truth.
For the sake of the memoir, which is written in the context of a student of ACIM, I thought I’d be consistent in my language and use ACIM’s terms. But I find that I now prefer “God”, even outside of the memoir. I love it, in fact. Depending on context, I now switch between “God” and “Truth”.
And now I have a better understanding of Christ. Christ is the part of me (and you) that is Part of God. You can only know Christ with another, because Christ is not limited to a seemingly-individual mind, but the the Universal Mind we all share. And the Holy Spirit comes from God as well and Christ is Its Home. It is the teaching aspect of Christ.
So, dear readers, God and Christ and Holy Spirit are back in my writing. And I hope, when it is published (I have never written one before, so I have no idea how long this will take) you will find the memoir useful. A Course in Miracles has been around for only forty-five years, so there has not been much time for role models to give hope to other students. It is my hope my story will.