One Story
I have come to a higher vision where I see the universe of
form as a tapestry; a unitary, unified story where once I saw it as a
collective (macro story) of independent stories (micro stories) all playing on
each other. The choices for this self have not been independent choices
influenced by and influencing the larger macro story as I thought they were.
The choices for this self have all been part
of one whole unfolding story. I experienced those choices, and still
experience the choices for this self now, as though they were made by a
singular independent split-mind among many independent split-minds. But now I
know they are simply the singular unfolding of one larger story. Every choice
is the effect of only one split mind. And none of the choices have any real
effects. The Truth goes on untouched by any of it. It is just a story.
I knew back when I studied A Course in Miracles that the “you” it was speaking to was not what
I experienced as the individual “me”. For example, where it speaks to the
choice to be separate from God I knew it was not referring to a choice that I
made as an individual. This individual, like all individuals, is an expression
of the choice of one split-mind (what ACIM calls the “Son of God”) to be
separate from God. But only now do I see
this. And of course this choice, again, is not a real choice. Nothing real is
occurring. It is just the playing out of the idea of the opposite-of-God.
I went from being almost wholly ego-identified and feeling
that the self was reality. I thought this self was one among many. Then I
shifted to being aware of a mind split between ego (personal thought system)
and the Holy Spirit (the thought system that comes from an awareness of Truth).
I thought this split mind was one among many. Eventually I saw that there is
really only one split mind that takes many forms. The content of all of these
minds is the same though their forms are different. So I came to understand
that these minds were a projection in the likeness of one split mind. But I
still thought of them as independent of that one split mind. And now I see that they are not.
Does this change anything for the self? No. Whatever its
choices they are part of the one story. They cannot be anything else. But I say
this vision is “higher” because, apart from the self, I can see the whole
story, as though I am above it, rather than in the midst of it seeing only what
is in front of me.
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i have no idea what God is, i have a feeling maybe true being cant be understood with the 'senses' of time and space, but i had an experience last week. i had been visiting my nephew who is experiencing suicidal thoughts. Taran has been my biggest.. challenge/teacher to being able to free my mind from fearing pain, sorrow, anger and guilt.. fearing the 'reality' of the ego and its effects. about a minute after leaving the house the words ran through my head 'not my will but gods' and for about five seconds i experienced the most beautiful joyful perfection. it was impossible for anything, any choice anyone made ever, to mar the perfection in any way.. every single choice ever made was part of the perfection, even if Taran chose to end being Taran. The world was kind of.. visually and emotionally golden without actually looking any different. it felt like, well in my mind ive called it one perfect song, and everything converged harmonically no matter what. no one could be 'left behind' or 'left out' because there was only one! and somehow that wasnt lonely, but joyful.
unlike past experiences, i couldnt even be peeved that it only lasted five seconds! i still feel grateful and know that peace is real, even if i am now only feeling the.. warming, heartening glow, not the full fearless illumination of it.
It simplifies everything , thanks for the story. :-)
My little story in one of the scripts of the whole story. Recently I see this self being pulled into the littleness of the world, to be a participant in making a life decision for another but I am holding the position, it is not my role to make any decisions for anyone. Sensing resistance from the others, I don't react and trust and watch the script play out. I know I am not in control and so I ask, why am I in it? What I see is the development of trust that is showing me how I have advanced up a rung on the ladder home. Instead of planning and acting and fixing as I did in the past, how the ego would have me play, the Holy Spirit whispers, you now know better dear. So I'm off the playing field and watch from the side lines and with trust, I send this whisper to the others as a blessing of my holiness, you know better my dears, listen to the Holy Spirit, He decides for all. I trust in the higher plan, knowing I need not do anything.
What led to this vision? Willingness to see demonstrated by 30 years of inviting Truth into my awareness and undoing guilt.
I recently have experimented with emotions and bodily pain where when fear arises or pain starts I simply observe them as though they are simply thought and then watch them dissipate because I do not give them life by thinking they are real and happening to "me".
while i still felt that holy spirit was something outside of me, and that i therefore needed outside help, your newsletters and ken wapnicks videos were what i was drawn to, despite the fact that 'you' often seemed to engender greater fear! (i still am drawn to follow your journey and writings, though it now it feels different again, in the light of one dreamer!)
this journey with ACIM started out blissful, exciting, got scary as all #***, terrifying, and after about 7 years of fear of non existence i finally feel like a happy learner again. i trust the power of my mind to choose to turn toward truth. i am no longer afraid of my minds power, as i feel my mind finally hovering around the actual feeling that this self cannot die as its not real... and that this is a very very good thing!
Yes, I now realize that I have been seeing like you, that these minds are a projection of one split mind.
This is so much like a night-time dream, right? In our dreams we seem to experience many minds but upon waking realize that the minds of each character in the dream is a projection of 'our one mind'.
And this explains how our thoughts affect all minds, since each mind is a projection of my one mind. If the dreamer changes his/her (though gender does not apply here) thoughts then each apparent mind reflects that change, clearly. This is how we save the world, not by preaching or convincing 'others' but by simply accepting the truth of who we are. And this is why 'brothers' are really projections of my own mind. When I see that clearly it is no longer possible to judge them as different. If I condemn them I am simply projecting my self-condemnation.
Then I had a hard time falling asleep as I found myself getting pulled into the littleness of the world. I got lost in thought (the story) about my Mom moving in with me and how things are going to change. Then waking up early, I realized my mistake and was called back to your blog. I see the story once again, a middle aged woman, living a seeming life of quiet solitude, in a country setting with her 3 dogs and now a new script is added to include room for Mom and the family that comes with her, oh the drama to come and a new role to play as caregiver.
The miracle, "quiet solitude", not the self's life in the country, with 3 pups and now Mom but the living within, (mind), that is where the quiet solitude resides. The world is just fiction trying to claim reality. Mucho Gracias Liz!
You are being hard on yourself. You cannot go "wrong". Just relax and stop judging yourself for everything you want.
i guess.. im hard on myself because if im not, who else would care for my peace? ok, now that was just weird. hmm. and yet.. who would!? conundrum.
but thanks liz, i am working on the judgement thing again.. welcoming the mentoring without worrying im doing myself a dis-service. phew, i didnt want to let go of it! been off track this last few days since experiencing the joy i wrote you about.