There Was No *Choice* to be "Separate From God"
There are things that become so clear without the belief in
guilt in the mind! For me, one of those things is the idea that “separation
from God” was not a choice made somewhere, sometime, perhaps by the “Son of
God” (macro split-mind). While I was studying A Course in Miracles the Holy Spirit (Awareness of Truth) would try
to get me to see that God (Truth) is One so there is no choice in God. Choice
is a part of not-God, which is the opposite of God, so there could be no choice
that caused the separation. Choice
only has meaning within the
separation. But I felt, without articulating it to myself, that someone had to be responsible for the
error. In fact I worked at being hyper-responsible for the separation by always
referring to it as something I chose even though I couldn’t see it. This is all
over my early writing.
What the Holy Spirit was trying to get me to see, and what I
can see now, is that nothing real has occurred, so how could there be a choice
that caused it? I don’t mean this theoretically. I mean it makes no sense that separation
from God was a choice. Being All, the Mind of God, must think of Its Own opposite. But being
All, It cannot have an opposite. The idea arises and is simultaneously undone:
“What’s my opposite? Oh, yeah, I am All; I cannot have an opposite!” Just as
God simply is, the idea of the opposite-of-God, or not-God, simply is, too.
Except that what it is, is a meaningless idea. It is nothing. It arises and is
immediately undone by God’s All-encompassing nature. There was no choice at all
to make; there was nothing to make a choice.
Only within the idea
of not-God does choice seem possible. Because only within the idea of not-God
does it seem like something real occurred. It seems as though part of God broke
off from God to make another reality. So there seems to be a choice between God
and not-God. And in not-Got there are an endless number of choices to make.
Choice in the present is what the Holy Spirit kept bringing
me back to. “Forget about any past ‘separation’,” It would say. “The choice to
be aware of God or not is in front of you now.” I couldn’t get my mind out of
the past; out of trying to understand “how all this came to be”, because there
lay the “proof” of my guilt. Since it was so real to me, what could the Holy
Spirit do but re-direct me to the present? Only in the present would I find
that I was not “separate from God”. Only in the present could guilt be undone.
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Comments
so in what state of mind does the decision to choose peace over conflict, the forgiving of what isn't real occur? is this the borderland? when forgiving is extended in the mind and peace is experienced it feels like a resting in the Holy Instant.
I am currently reading RGIP with a client and the last time we met I remember encountering something in it where I thought, "Hmm. Don't think I'd say that now." But I don't remember what it was and it was not significant.
'Choice in the present is what the Holy Spirit kept bringing me back to. “Forget about any past ‘separation’,” It would say. “The choice to be aware of God or not is in front of you now.” I couldn’t get my mind out of the past; out of trying to understand “how all this came to be”, because there lay the “proof” of my guilt.'
i have simply been clinging to clouds of guilt!!!! golly, no wonder ive been so tired, so much effort to cling to the insubstantial! oh, the important stories of separateness, me-ness, them-ness. stories of gain and loss, victims and victimisers. anything, anything but meaningless!!