There Was No *Choice* to be "Separate From God"
There are things that become so clear without the belief in guilt in the mind! For me, one of those things is the idea that “separation from God” was not a choice made somewhere, sometime, perhaps by the “Son of God” (macro split-mind). While I was studying A Course in Miracles the Holy Spirit (Awareness of Truth) would try to get me to see that God (Truth) is One so there is no choice in God. Choice is a part of not-God, which is the opposite of God, so there could be no choice that caused the separation. Choice only has meaning within the separation. But I felt, without articulating it to myself, that someone had to be responsible for the error. In fact I worked at being hyper-responsible for the separation by always referring to it as something I chose even though I couldn’t see it. This is all over my early writing.
What the Holy Spirit was trying to get me to see, and what I can see now, is that nothing real has occurred, so how could there be a choice that caused it? I don’t mean this theoretically. I mean it makes no sense that separation from God was a choice. Being All, the Mind of God, must think of Its Own opposite. But being All, It cannot have an opposite. The idea arises and is simultaneously undone: “What’s my opposite? Oh, yeah, I am All; I cannot have an opposite!” Just as God simply is, the idea of the opposite-of-God, or not-God, simply is, too. Except that what it is, is a meaningless idea. It is nothing. It arises and is immediately undone by God’s All-encompassing nature. There was no choice at all to make; there was nothing to make a choice.
Only within the idea of not-God does choice seem possible. Because only within the idea of not-God does it seem like something real occurred. It seems as though part of God broke off from God to make another reality. So there seems to be a choice between God and not-God. And in not-Got there are an endless number of choices to make.
Choice in the present is what the Holy Spirit kept bringing me back to. “Forget about any past ‘separation’,” It would say. “The choice to be aware of God or not is in front of you now.” I couldn’t get my mind out of the past; out of trying to understand “how all this came to be”, because there lay the “proof” of my guilt. Since it was so real to me, what could the Holy Spirit do but re-direct me to the present? Only in the present would I find that I was not “separate from God”. Only in the present could guilt be undone.
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