This mind wondered, what happens when the belief in guilt falls away? Well, first the self- concept fell away. This mind sometimes wonders if this is the same as saying self-identification has fallen away. After all, what is the self but a concept? Sometimes this mind is comfortable with that. Sometimes it feels it is not quite accurate to say, yet, that all self-id has fallen away. It sees evidence that this is not yet so.
After the self-concept fell away this mind spent a good three years in a type of limbo or stasis. The personal thought system (ego) was very loud, insistent, and persistent. Of course, there was also always a present Peace. This mind could do nothing but allow the noise and wait and see what would unfold. And, frankly, that is what is left after the belief in guilt has fallen away! There is nothing to do but watch. Everything is automatic and the mind only needs to observe the undoing of the part of it that no longer has a use.
Mostly, for now anyway, this mind is unlearning thinking in terms of guilt. It is unlearning judging the self and the personal thought system. It is unlearning thinking as a self. It is unlearning identifying with the doer in the mind. These all say the same thing in a slightly different way.
This mind is, of course, tremendously confused as the old thought ways are broken down. But this mind is used to this confusion. It is something that came on this path whenever a shift occurred. The confusion this time is different only in depth and duration. The other shifts were shifts in self-concepts. This shift was the dropping of all self-concepts. One thing this mind has learned is trust so it doesn’t have to try to force certainty anymore. It knows the limbo and confusion will pass and clarity will come. They always have.
So this mind is learning how not to think. But how is it going to think going forward? This mind does not know yet, but it has had glimpses that are hard to characterize, even to itself. There is so much unlearning in the way that it cannot yet see what will be left when the unlearning is done.
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