Ask: Is it part of the path that everything I enjoyed is gone or disappointing?
“I've been a student of ACIM for four years now. I feel I have been making steady progress in remembering who I am and my relationship to the ‘world’ and ‘others’, but lately I've been hit left, right and center by what I call ‘disappointments’. It seems that everything I once enjoyed about life is either gone, changing for the worse, or just plain a big disappointment. Is this a natural part of waking up, is it aging, or am I completely on the wrong path since I feel this way? I've been talking this over with the Holy Spirit, which feels very comforting, but I can't help but feel sad these days…” – JB
What you feel is typical for a new student of A Course in Miracles. Disillusionment, lack of motivation, lack of interest, depression, etc. often occurs in the first few years. Even though you are still in the intellectual stage, you have learned to question the ego (personal thought system) and your values are changing. The meaning you gave to the things you enjoyed is no longer there. And you have not yet imbued those things with new meaning. This is the beginning of the “period of sorting out” (M-4.I.A.4).
The first shift students make is to see every situation as a classroom where they learn of the Holy Spirit rather than as an end in itself. The first part of this shift is releasing the meaning you gave to things. So everything seems empty for a while. This will change as you learn to use everything as a way to be with the Holy Spirit. All things will then have one purpose for you, giving them meaning, and simplifying your life.
So give your interests, work, relationships, etc. to the Holy Spirit. The purpose for doing this is not for some desired outcome, but to grow your awareness of the Holy Spirit. Eventually, It will become your Constant Companion and this relationship will supply all the meaning you need in any situation.
The period of sorting out is the most uncomfortable stage. You do not have to go through it alone. Email me at Liz@acimmentor.com to set up a telephone appointment. Learn more at www.acimmentor.com.
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