The Stranger Within
The first time I saw her was last August when the Golden Light came into my mind and my first novel came through. There were only brief flashes of her. She was a dynamic, confident, and lighthearted personality. When she was around, the body stood straight and the muscles in its face relaxed. On one occasion, one of her sisters looked curiously at her when she responded to something with uncharacteristic lighthearted wit. “Oh, there she is,” I thought. “Even her sister doesn’t recognize her.”
Suddenly, there was a Stranger within animating the self this mind projects. Since the Holy relationship came in April and this mind went through huge shifts in May and June, this new Animator emerges more and more.
Over the years, when I was identified with the self, I experienced disorienting changes through personal growth and shifts in self-concepts that had me wondering briefly, “Who am I?” These were changes I felt were in me in my self-identification. But this time, I did not recognize at all What was acting through the self. It wasn’t a different version of me. I was a passive observer; the consciousness between the self and the new Animator.
The former animator, the ego, which told this mind to identify with the self, is gone. So this mind no longer has any sense of “ownership” of the self. It observes the self and lets its feelings come and go. And it observes the new Animator—Spirit—living through the self.
Where ego lived through the self for fulfillment, Spirit mostly lets the self flow in the unfolding story of the universe of form. As a manifestation now of the Undoing, her part is a Love story all around. Sometimes, like when she is teaching, formally or informally, Spirit is active in her rather than passive.
This emerging Animator is fascinating to watch. Oh, it is lovely to not have the burden of maintaining an identity, if a little bewildering to a mind used to it. This mind is learning how to not identify with the self. It is learning how to not-do as a Stranger directs the self’s doing. My suspicion is this is a transitional experience for a mind used to separation and parsing itself into parts. Just as my inner and outer life now have no boundary, eventually the self, the consciousness now acting as observer, and Spirit will become integrated into one thing.
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