Why the Mystical Holy Relationship Threatens the Ego
Thirty-four years ago I experienced my first mystical Holy relationship. I knew then that the Holy relationship, if allowed to become fulfilled, would result in a 180 degree turn in my experience of a personal relationship. I couldn’t put my finger on exactly what I was seeing. I couldn’t have said then that it corrected cause and effect. But I did sense it would undo something fundamental to the ego’s (personal thought system’s) way of perceiving. And at that time that was my way of perceiving.
In the mystical Holy relationship, instead of seeing another as the source (cause) of Love (effect), you recognize Love is the Source (cause) of your relationship (effect) with the other. Sounds great, doesn’t it? And it is! It is Joyous for a relationship that expresses Love to show up. But therein lies the threat to the ego: The relationship is simply here, already whole and complete. The ego teaches you to make relationships to get Love and/or to express your personal desires and values.
A Course in Miracles teaches that relationships are special love, special hate, or Holy. A special relationship is an obstacle to peace. In a special love relationship you believe the other is the source of Love (Wholeness) for you. It is why you make the relationship with them. You are not just attached to them through affection and familiarity. You cling to them because you feel that to lose them is to lose the source of Love. You panic at the thought of losing them.
In the special hate relationship peace is blocked because you cling to the idea that you are the victim of the other. You hold onto the other through resentments. Often, a special relationship is both love and hate.
But you probably have plenty of personal relationships that are not special. They are not obstacles to peace. You know that the other is not the source of Love for you. You form the relationship through personal desire or values, but you use it as a classroom in which you grow your awareness of Truth. You bring the Holy Spirit (Awareness of Truth within you) into your relationship with the other. These relationships are practical Holy relationships. Where special relationships confuse cause and effect—another is seen as the source of Love—the practical Holy relationship is a step toward correcting this error. You use the relationship to remind yourself that Love is within you.
But no real shift occurs until you experience the mystical Holy relationship. The mystical Holy relationship is an expression of the Love within you. Love Itself, not your personal desires or values, is the Source of the relationship. You and another recognize your joining, your Oneness, is already established. There is nothing to seek for or to make in the relationship. Ah, and therein is the threat to the ego! The Cause of the relationship is Something Else within you, not your personal needs or values. Oh, some of these might get met and expressed, but they’re not the motivation for the relationship. In fact, personal motivation, something else you make, is also not part of the mystical Holy relationship. The mystical Holy relationship expresses Love through persons, but is not made to express the personal. So, when you are ego-identified, you feel the Holy relationship asks you to sacrifice your desires and values.
“... The conflict between the goal and the structure of the relationship is so apparent that they cannot coexist. Yet now the goal will not be changed. Set firmly in the unholy relationship, there is no course except to change the relationship to fit the goal. Until this happy solution is seen and accepted as the only way out of the conflict, the relationship may seem to be severely strained.” (T-17.V.4)
“…You can escape from your distress only by getting rid of your brother. You need not part entirely if you choose not to do so. But you must exclude major areas of fantasy from your brother, to save your sanity. Hear not this now.” (T-17.V.7)
The threat to the ego is why the urge to flee the Holy relationship is so strong. Maybe you won’t run completely. But you try to find ways to control it or to “make” it as you are used to making relationships. You complain that the relationship and/or the other are not what you want. You try to impose your values and expectations on the relationship. And they don’t fit! Not because they are wrong. But because that is not what the relationship is about.
Finally, I see clearly what I could not see thirty-four years ago: A relationship as an expression rather than a means to a personal end. I felt the threat and I sensed, but could not understand, the reverse of cause and effect the mystical Holy relationship would bring about. Now I do not feel threatened and I am willing to let it teach me What I am by What is expressed through it.
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