Ask: Why doesn't Truth hold our attention?
“Aldous Huxley wrote ‘Distraction is the original sin of the mind’. Distraction appears to be the ego’s most valued weapon in the world with a vast arsenal and growing steadily. So then it seems that it’s what you give your attention to that will determine the level of inner peace or chaos in your experience in the world. This Distraction/Attention dynamic seems to me to be at the core of Truth/not Truth discovery within. While in this dualistic drama not-Truth claims easy victories distracting personal selves through attention and distraction, Truth on the other hand stands silently and waits for our mighty power of attention to turn towards it. It’s as if Truth knows you will ultimately come back to it. The sound and fury of the ego has no effect on it but it does on you. Why doesn’t Truth pull our attention?” – E St. A
Make no mistake: Not-Truth (including the ego/personal thought system) has no power over you. You empower it by valuing it. Truth doesn’t hold your attention because you also value not-Truth. Sometimes you value not-Truth for what you think it will give you over what Truth will give you. Sometimes you value not-Truth because you are afraid of Truth.
This is why A Course in Miracles lays out the path to peace as “the development of trust”. You do not trust that only Truth will give you what you want or that Truth will give you more than you give up. It takes a long while for you to let It in via the Awareness of Truth (Holy Spirit) in your mind. And then your trust builds slowly—often three steps forward and two steps back. You are very skittish in your distrust.
However, slowly but surely, you will trust It and let It in more and more and your peace will grow.