Truth, the Awareness of Truth, and Its Effects
Lately, I have been pulled back inward to the Awareness of Truth (Holy Spirit). I’ve certainly been experiencing It a great deal spontaneously, but this pull inward is something different. It seems to be coming from a conscious recognition of the difference between Truth, the Awareness of Truth, and Its effects.
It began with experiencing again Truth’s complete indifference to the experience of not-Truth. Contemplating this I became aware how caught up I’ve been in what are merely the effects of the awareness of Truth. Frankly, my life has transformed so greatly I had to be. The transformation began with the experience I call The Golden, when the Golden Light of Love came into my mind and brought a romance novel with It. During that time, I also reached a point where I recognized that the Light Itself and the love and joy that accompanied It, were really only effects of being aware of Truth. They were not Truth, nor were they the Awareness of Truth, and I didn’t want to lose sight of Truth. For a brief spell I was pulled back, like now, to turning inward to Truth. But not long afterward my seemingly-outer life went through a huge transformation and required my attention.
(When I write “awareness” with a lowercase “a” I am writing about the action of being aware of Truth. When I write “awareness” with an uppercase “A” I am writing about the state of being aware of Truth, also called the Holy Spirit.)
During the time I call The Dismantling, when I was undoing my entire outer life, I’d sometimes think about how I was experiencing the Awareness of Truth as the underlying Wave I was riding, but I was not consciously aware of Truth. When I tried to be, I felt it was not time. I would have to force the effort. My conscious efforts were needed in the dismantling of the life that had passed so I could move on to the new life I was given. The most I could do was rest in the Awareness of Truth; the Wave I was riding.
And here, in this new life, I’ve experienced what I call the Hereness. While the outward shifts in my life were effects of being aware of Truth, the Hereness is the Awareness of Truth Itself. It is the same as my experience that I am Spirit.
This has helped me clarify:
Truth is That-Which-is. It is wholly apart from not-Truth; It is wholly apart from the limited experience of form (including non-material forms like thoughts and energy), so wholly untouched by it. To understand this is to experience what A Course in Miracles means by “forgiveness”.
The Awareness of Truth (also called Spirit or Holy Spirit or Christ Consciousness) is the state of being aware of Truth as truth while also being aware of not-Truth.
The effects of the Awareness of Truth are the experiences that follow from being aware of Truth: Love, Peace, Joy; detachment from not-Truth; a transformed perception of not-Truth, which ACIM calls “the Real World”, “Vision”, or “Real Perception”; and, sometimes, to a transformed life in the world.
Truth does not exist so that it can cause effects in your not-Truth darkened mind any more than the sun shines to make plants grow. The sun shines and plants grow. Truth exists and comes into your awareness and this has the effect of not-Truth being undone in your mind. These effects in turn “prove” the existence of Truth and reveal the Awareness of Truth in your mind.