The Shift in "I"
My experience of “I” has changed. I
no longer experience my motivations and actions as coming from a limited,
personal, autonomous place. I used to feel “I” was an independent thread in a
tapestry of other independent threads. Now I experience “I” as the Tapestry
expressing Itself through this thread.
A
Course in Miracles says you cannot know What you are in yourself alone.
This means you cannot understand yourself as only one thread in the Tapestry. You
are the Tapestry as a whole expressing as a single thread.
ACIM speaks in terms of your
relationships with others, but, for me, even the way I read that for a long
time was limiting. Not yet able to allow the Tapestry to express through me, I
tried to understand the Tapestry one thread (relationship) at a time, and it
didn’t work. I was relating at the level of the thread rather than at the level
of the Tapestry.
The mystical Holy Relationship with
another has been my way into understanding this. A mystical Holy Relationship
is experienced with Spiritual Vision. On the surface, it appears as though one
thread is relating to another thread. But in relating with Spiritual Vision to
another, each thread becomes aware it is not isolated or autonomous. It is not
even part of the Tapestry; it is the
Tapestry Itself. The entire Tapestry is contained in a Holy Relationship. In
what seems to be a singular relationship in a plurality of relationships I
experience the One Relationship. In other words, a Holy Relationship is never
just two threads in the Tapestry. It is the Tapestry expressing Itself as those
two threads. It is the whole Tapestry.
I can no longer distinguish “I”
from anyone or anything else. When I am centered, I feel I am with everyone.
Not just my loved ones and not just those near me or whom I can see. But
everyone, everywhere. The whole Tapestry. And I feel available to everyone, everywhere
if I am moved to be there for them. But I have no personal motivation to be
there for anyone because everything is unfolding perfectly. Any action I am
moved to make is part of the perfect unfolding. And this is not something I
discern from the personal level.
In this state, I am detached from
the personal level with others because I am with everyone on the other level. I
am actually detached from the personal level in me. This is why some refer to
spiritual awareness as “lonely” at the personal level. You do not relate
person-to-person. You do not even relate Spirit to Spirit as there is only one
Spirit. You are simply Spirit.
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Comments
i typed this and went completely still in wonder at the beauty and clarity of your sharing.
the tapestry and thread metaphor was profoundly helpful in describing the shift that is promised.
thank you n
Bookends are that which supports "vertically".
I have been reading about Babylon and Nineveh two cities in the 2000BC range. In the late nineteenth century there was a golden era of studying and clearing the ruins. The guys that went in there about 1870, entered an era in Syria and Lebanon that was still living as they did in the past. Bedouin's and such. History looks different from that perspective. I got to thinking about a growing up Jesus. That was what the rant was about.
Actions in the world of form are only effects of the world you see. Behavior follows thought. If duty is important to you in your world then do what you must to fulfill it for your own peace of mind.
Liz is living what the Course says. You are not Will or Mary or Joe with your opinions, emotions and thoughts. Step aside from them. Observe. I know this because it has my ego all riled up. I was off trying to wrestle it to the ground. Whew!
Let me check out that blog...
Here's a thought that came to me last week: If you fear nonexistence you must think it's possible.
Then last night the idea of destiny came up and sensing a prompt of further looking at the idea of destiny, a time concept, a past beginning and a future end, the idea of death of not existing. Who will no longer exist?
Then recalling receiving an answer to my question, "what am I afraid of" and the answer, "not being in control of my destiny", I now see the hidden fear, the belief in a some"body" that has a destiny, a beginning and an end - death.
Well Merry Christmas to Me.
I hear Mooji saying, "don't give it to the mind" and just keep quiet". We will look back at some point with more clarity as Liz has demonstrated so we'll with this blog.
Empty the mind and trust what unfolds.
I love you, Deb
Quite helpful when it comes to accept everything. Peace,
That probably doesn't mean anything to anyone but me, but it does again show the process of writing on the blog brings knowledge or learning at least:-)
The Observer is watching from a distance the mind thinking, the body seeing. But what it is watching doesn’t exist. So, pull back and be the Observer without observing. Without the action of observing. That is all there is. You have taken away what doesn’t exist and gone to the only thing that does exist.
Ask, beg, demand Holy Spirit to show you the Truth.....and be WILLING to hear Holy Spirit’s NON-VERBAL answer....which is Silence.
Much love.