Ask: Is there anything else that you think I could be doing?
“The more I read
RG (Releasing
Guilt for Inner Peace) the more it
resonates with me. Since I'm retired and no longer have the imposed structure
of a job and also divorced and no longer have the daily stress of my former
marriage I can easily focus on what's going on with me. I can follow my
feelings and what shows up is a free-floating, non-specific fear which
according to the Course is guilt.
There is no denying it or attributing it to anything outside of me. While I'm
not happy about it I do believe this is what's true for me and an authentic way
to see myself and live my life right now.
So I study the Course by reading. I meditate to invite the ToT (Teacher
of Truth) into my awareness which so far has gotten little response. I started
the lessons and gave up after 5 out of boredom. I refer to the 7 Rules for
Decision Making from to time to time. I reach out to friends including my ex
who loves your books. I distract myself by reading history, watching a ton of
movies and drink my daily "medicinal" beer. That's me.
Is there
anything else you think I could be doing?...I do think an honest account of how
one student lives his daily life along with your response might be helpful to
others who might be getting frustrated.” – ES
The daily practice I recommend is in
my book 4 Habits for Inner Peace. All
you need to experience peace is to be aware of Truth. So just do what you want
to do each day without judging it and bring your mind back to Truth when you
remember to do so. If you find that you cannot do this then you need to look with
the Teacher of Truth (Holy Spirit) in your mind at the guilt and fear that are
your obstacles to peace.
Recognizing the guilt in your mind is
the beginning of undoing it. The next step is to become aware of the unconscious
and conscious beliefs that cause your feelings of guilt so that you can undo
them with the Teacher of Truth in your mind.
>>>>>>>>>
Learn about the books The ACIM Mentor Articles, The Plain Language A Course in Miracles, 4 Habits for Inner Peace, and Releasing Guilt for Inner Peace at www.acimmentor.com.
If you have a question the answer to which you think will help others send it to Liz@acimmentor.com and indicate that you want it answered in the ACIM Mentor Newsletter/Blog.
If you have a question the answer to which you think will help others send it to Liz@acimmentor.com and indicate that you want it answered in the ACIM Mentor Newsletter/Blog.
Comments
Your comment is wonderful and the part about Jesus liking wine instead is hilarious!
I also want to add to the discussion that getting "bored" is part of the ego's resistance to the course, so sometimes it's not a bad idea to look at that itself with the Teacher of Truth. I think we can be too tolerant of boredom, like it's not a big deal, but it is just as concerning as anger, sadness, etc. in my opinion.
Medicinal use of alcohol creates relatively permanent free floating anxiety. As a person drinks more to deal with it the level of anxiety increases and around and around you go. Stopping drinking doesn't relieve it, it only makes it worse. Just saying...
"Some ways that a belief in guilt shows up are fear of a god, expectation of punishment, generalized unworthiness, generalized inadequacy, self-loathing, judging yourself, judging others, thinking that others are judging you, taking others’ attitudes and behaviors personally, confusing responsibility with blame, defensiveness, secretiveness, dishonesty, generalized anxiety, generalized fear, generalized anger, martyrdom, perfectionism, being hard on yourself, self-medicating with a substance or behavior, an inability to be alone, an inability to tolerate quiet, an inability to meditate, an inability to be present, busy-ness, nightmares, worry and anxiety about the future, worry and anxiety about loved ones, thoughts and images of you or loved ones or strangers being tortured, the need to be right, the need to win, over-achieving, the need to fix others, the need to fix the world, sacrificing, co-dependency, fear of success, fear of good outcomes for you, masochism, self-destructive behavior, self-sabotage, interpreting neutral events (natural disaster, disease, etc.) as punishment or proof of guilt, interpreting others’ behavior as punishment or proof of your guilt, and spiritualizing the self. Examples of many of these responses are given throughout this book."
Pain and grief overwhelm me. I've even quit studying the course years ago. And yet here I am. Thanks so much. Jacomina