Discovering the World as Extension (Creation)
Along the way, as much as I loved to get into spiritual theory, in the end I always let experience lead the way. Theory is interesting intellectually, but it never caused an actual shift in my experience. I have been willing to let go of theory if experience taught me something different. However, more often than not my experience would not contradict, but would rather illuminate theory for me. Theory became fact when I experienced it.
In the past several years I became aware of the pseudo-reality we live in as a story. This is how “the world isn’t real” began to show up in my experience. This story is the moment the idea of not-Truth arose in the Mind of Truth (God) and was undone by Truth’s all-encompassing nature unfolding as time. In time, the idea seemed to arise long ago and its undoing seems to be in some indefinite future. We live in a story of correction, or undoing, or, as A Course in Miracles calls it, Atonement.
I became aware that what I felt were my thoughts, feelings, actions, motivations, choices, and decisions were not independent from the story, but part and parcel of it. They were, in fact, the story being expressed through what I felt was me. My will was not free within the story; it was the free expression of a greater will.
In the past couple of years my awareness that the world isn’t real evolved. I became aware of myself as not just a “character” in the story through which the story is expressed, but also as the story being expressed and the author expressing it. There really is no distinction to be made between the source (author) and its expression (story/character). As this awareness has unfolded I have also had experiences that “I am Spirit; I am Immortal”. What I have needed to sort out lately is the relationship between these new ongoing experiences. Spirit I have experienced as the Extension of Truth (“God’s Creation” in ACIM) in my mind. And it has been my understanding, through my experience, that the unfolding pseudo-reality is not the Extension of Truth. I found the Extension of Truth within, but not in the world. I could find passages in ACIM that supported this as well as passages that suggested otherwise. Most other spiritual teachings say the world is the Extension of Truth (in their own words), but, again, I let experience lead the way. But lately I’ve been sure that my experiences as Spirit and as the author are related, if not the same. How could I reconcile this?
I got that my experience of myself as the unfolding story and its author as well as a character in it is the correct way to see this mind. This mind is not limited to a self (character). Yet, isn’t all of that not-Truth in my mind? Spirit is the Truth in my mind. Then one day I was thinking of Spirit as the Correction of not-Truth. It bridges the limited experience of the self and Unlimited Truth. And it dawned on me: Wasn’t that what I was saying about my expanded experience of the author/story/character? The author and Spirit are the same!
I cannot see that I am Spirit (Correction) without also seeing that I am author because they are the split-mind—not-Truth (author) and Correction of not-Truth (Spirit). They occur simultaneously in the Mind of Truth, and so also in my seemingly-individual mind. Spirit wipes out the idea of not-Truth the instant it arises. So though the original author of the story of time would be the idea of not-Truth if it had not been corrected, since it was corrected instantly, Spirit is the Author of the story of time. Time arose and became a story of its own Undoing.
To be aware I am Spirit is to be aware I am the Correction; the Essence of the story of Undoing. As the story of Undoing is the manifestation of Spirit and Spirit is the Extension of Truth, then the story of Undoing in which we all live is the Extension of Truth (“God’s Creation”) after all.
And now I see it. It is my experience; not just something I’ve read in books. In my experience this is all a story. I live the Correction and the Correction is the Extension of Truth. I could not have come at this awareness backwards. I could not convince myself, because of things I’d read, that the world was the Extension of Truth. I tried, for a while, in early days, but it felt forced and false, which it was. Because it is not a world outside of me that convinces me it is the Extension of Truth. It is my experience as the Extension of Truth which corrects my perception of the world, an extension of me.