I have a boss who has been undergoing treatment for Bipolar Disorder for over 30 years, and I have all of the typical litany of “I love my job, but I hate my boss because……” issues that many of us have throughout our lives, which could let my ego be obsessed with anger and revenge thoughts, if I let it. He has several other health issues, which I honestly believe I could help in healing if it were not for the fact that when I look within, and am vigilant of my thoughts, I know that I am not truly forgiving him, but hold some sort of deep seated pleasure at his “justifiable punishment.” Yes, I realize that if anyone deserves forgiveness “in the world,” it is someone whose inherited and biological issues are the total cause of his hurtful actions. Yes, I realize that we are all worthy, and during or immediately after meditation, I feel I have turned it over to Spirit for healing, but either I am not truly handing it over, or I am not yet seeing the personal healing that migh...